I know my hard and passionate opposition to abortion must be hard on a woman or man who participated in the abortion of a child. What I can say is that God forgives those who repent. You don’t need to confess it here. But you have to talk to God about it.
If you are not yet a Christian, repent and be baptized and you will be born again. I say this with a lot of love for those who feel this terrible, secret burden. May God bless you. Dan